this post is dedicated to matt dillon (circa 1980) with nunchucks:

this time last year, i never thought:

• i would dropout of college--even though i never pictured me enjoying it.
• i would move to L.A. for a month and take an acting class.
• i might have to move back home.
• i would become obsessed with a band that's frequently on the disney channel.
• i would enjoy working out daily.
• nobody would hire me.

oh, life. you and your surprises.

i tried to make some bruschetta and cheese stuffed chicken. it didn't look too nice, but it was good enough to eat. i had nilla wafers with cool whip (lite?) and strawberries:

 now i'm sleepy.

things i like today:

i (kind of) stopped craving a big gulp after seeing this.

batman said "sweat pants" in his batman voice.

i saw the dark knight.

i suppose i'll hop on the bandwagon and say it was good. since i did not have a cute (preferably french) boy to hold on to, i had a sweater wrapped around me up to my chin throughout the entire thing. suspense and i do not mix well... i may have cried a little. most of the movie was filmed in the loop, and my building is featured. caitlin and i got really excited when (a blurred) americana submarine was in the background of a driving scene. we always want to go there when we travel to target/the library. we really don't understand how we missed all these scenes being shot. although, we did see the fake batman hanging scene when we were walking home from the grocery.

i also freaked out about anthony michael hall.... totally necessary. i miss the cute anthony michael hall.

watching the movie made me remember the cartoon, which i had forgotten everything about.

well, i'm going to go to sleep with lights on.

everybody loves raymond.

i like wigs.

i like photoshoots.

i like friends.

we sat around looking at our "dimly lit" wall.

NOT doing the good.

so, i was casually youtubin' family matters...which led to a "stephanie tanner tribute" video....which led to a "dj and steve" video....which led me to a great discovery. i had no idea fred savage and the girl who played dj tanner starred in a movie for lifetime together. i started watching it, no big deal. i keep telling caitlin that i kind of have a crush on mr. savage (one of my favorite people, john zido, called him a "handsome goblin".) THEN FRED SAVAGE STARTS BEATING DJ TANNER. even though their relationship was rocky, i was still crushing and still believed it would all work out. WRONG. HE KILLED HER?! FRED SAVAGE IS NOT A KILLER, HE'S A LOVER. HAVE YOU NOT WATCHED OSWALD ON NICK, JR? OR  SEEN AN EPISODE OF THE WONDER YEARS? i know kevin arnold is a character, but i'm sure he is just like fred savage. no, actually i KNOW he is. (don't ruin my dreams.) anyways, this movie has destroyed my evening. oh, and ms. sally jessy raphael makes an appearance. buy me the seven dollar dvd, so i can get upset again.

i went with caitlin to look at an apartment today. we didn't actually make it to the building. 

...let's just say i got called "whitey" and everyone kept asking what we were doing there.

i'm so tired of filling out applications and answering survey questions.

NOBODY WILL HIRE ME ANYWAY.

jb. one week.

balloons & cigarettes

i forgot how adorable elizabethtown is.

actually, i forgot about orlando.

online after midnight.

most likely googlin' boys and clothes i can't afford.

wall-e... cutest movie ever.
the wackness... why can't we all live in 1994 again?
lauren came over:
my girl... makes me cry EVERY time. poor thomas j.
now & then... one of my favorites.
followed by boredom:

i went to bed around 2...then i couldn't sleep. all of a sudden, SOMEONE farted (since i don't have full walls i could hear it). i didn't know if what i heard was real, but before i could really decide, SOMEONE laughed. followed by me laughing, which led to fifteen minutes of laughter.

where's my invitation?

it's 7:14, and i am awake. my dream was like no country for old men. actually... not at all. that thing javier used was a beeper-sized device, and some guy was using it on a school bus. it bothered me enough to wake me up. as i was trying to think of happy thoughts, (like naming my future french bulldog) worst case scenarios kept popping in my head. finally, i stood up and went to the bathroom. i think this all happened because i really had to pee.

now, i'm still paranoid. i want to go back to sleep.

i also kind of feel like throwing up.

oh cindy burris...

"i love to whip my own cream."